by Hannah Gittos
I'm about to get ready and head to the Hackney Showroom for our 2 day run in London. Very exited and nervous to be doing the show to a home crowd!
Having previously toured this show last year I thought I had an idea of the experience I was about to embark on. Yet, like most things in life, nothing ever turns out the way you imagine!
I've found this a difficult show to be involved with at times. I'm a single 36 year old woman with no children. Delving into the complexities of parenthood and the intricacies of the relationships that surround it has been fascinating, difficult and sometimes heart wrenching.
I wonder if I'll ever experience being a mother?
As I stand as Ronnie and watch the children's clothes come out in the final scene of the show the reality of never having children sometimes flashes before my eyes. I can't quite articulate at the moment how I feel about that.
When the five of us are behind stage in the pre-show waiting to begin there is a very distinctive energy amongst us all. I can best describe it as like being suspended at the top of a roller coaster before it plunges into the unknown. Sara and Ciaran need to talk, Royce and I can't speak and Laura floats somewhere in-between.